Renascence

"Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good. His love endures forever." Psalms 136:1

Firstly, I will say I'm deeply introverted. I don't like stuff about my life flying about  and people making a fuse outta it. People can be horrible, you know. But this tale is a tad different in the sense that it  is a testimony and testimonies are not meant  to be kept. They are meant to be told.

Mark 5:19 - "Howbeit Jesus suffered him not, but saith unto him, Go home to thy friends, and tell them how great things the Lord hath done for thee, and hath had compassion on thee."

Now, It has been known in a relatively big circle that I have had 'problems with my eyes'. My glasses are a testament to that. But my close friends know it's not just 'problems with my eyes'. They have known that my eyes ache badly- and deplorably, problematically, notoriously badly so.

But it's been more complex than that. I have experienced for 5 fraught years multiple  inexplicable symptoms: itching skin upon exposure to the sun, photophobia, allergic conjunctivitis, fatigue, eye pain, neck pain, back ache, loss of appetite, poor vision, fever, tooth ache, facial pain, falling hair and even occular hypertension (abnormal eye pressure)- almost all of them simultaneously.

All this time I have been trying to treat these symptoms to no avail. The number of times I have gone to hospitals is ridiculously huge. I remember at one time a box of batches of tablets that was prescribed to me, a box the size of the box of bata shoes. Damn!!
And lately I went for a CT scan, exposed my self to noucous radiation, to find if there is a problem in my head. 
Awful, right?

I don't know what kind of sickness this is. It's not Malaria, it's not typhoid, it's not Ebola. It's not a definitive kind of disease.

What has been prominent though is the eye pain , clinically known as chronic eye pain. I have always thought  the other symptoms were its appendages , that the neck and back pain extended from it. I don't know whether I'm right here or not.

I have suffered an egregious pain.I m not putting a stretch to it. I have suffered for real. I could cry sometimes. This mysterious disease has taken its toll me on me. Life has dealt me it's bad hand; excoriated, reduced me piece by piece in a way somebody who's not me can not fully comprehend.

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Firstly, my academic life.
I was born a precocious kid. And for most of my life I have been ranked in top positions in class. But when all this started the  graph on my transcript started to dip and I could not do anything about it.
The pain I experienced was damaging and almost crippling. Reading become utterly strenuous (until lately) and sometimes even impossible.

In my form 4, I read virtually nothing the year long. I slept or flipped through magazines ,or just pretended to read and shouted 'shut up '-being the class prefect -during morning and evening preps. Sometimes I sneaked to go and sleep. (  I was never caught. I just don't get how ).And during classes I would not concentrate.

Long way after the syllabus was done I was still grappling with the first topics and actually I never did the whole syllabus but I sat for KCSE which I flopped (but not the way you can think) yet I'm no dimwit.
I barely read the set books...
Secondly, my social and spiritual life.
This nagging, hardworking pain changed my social life also. I become unusually silent and withdrawn. I become loggy and grouchy. I also become a blithering idiot.
My spiritual life also went faltering.

BUT THINGS HAVE CHANGED JUST AS MYSTERIOUSLY.

I'm overexcited or perhaps rhapsodical about my renascence. I mean I have never felt this way for such along time.

It's my fifth day feeling whole again, after what seemed like a lifetime of dreariness, pain and torment.
It's hard to be believe I can wake up without squinted eyes, without duels with light that made me feel like 'passing out', without notorious back , eye, tooth and facial pain.
And also this is the fifth day I have had real sleep.

Right now I'm on medication of a godsend wonder drug.

Let me explain.
In our church-I'm a Seventh Day Adventist-we believe in medical missionary work ,that is, using naturopathic means to heal maladies: use of simples juices and vegetables, hot water baths etc

Now last week after church I bought a strange reddish brown powder from a medical missionary. He is a professional doctor but he deals in this sort of unlikely medicine, now which is the ideal medicine.

To him I explained my symptoms: the eye pain, the back, neck, tooth pain. He just told me those are allergies, allergies simple as that! And then he prescribed the wonder drug; 'One tea spoon in a glass of very hot water, cover for 20 minutes ×2 daily, morning and evening.'

You know I have gone to hospitals, many of them, but no doctor really diagnosed my problem. In fact they told me I'm not allergic.

I'm recuperating.
And this healing can not be called anything else. It's a miracle.

Thank you God for this miracle.
You had a reason for my pain and you know why it had to be me. It is your handiwork. I will never forget!!